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Larry Nassar annoyed 2 of my daughters: this is how I advance

This article is the third installment of "A year later: Larry Nassar and the women who They did listen, "a seven-part series commemorating the seven days that a woman was in a Lansing, Michigan, cut last year and faced her abuser, the former US Gymnastics coach. UU And Michigan State Larry Nassar. Read more deadlines: One | Two | Four | Five | Six | Seven

Being a mother was one of those things that I easily assumed, but when I was finally ready to bring babies into my life, my body did not want to cooperate. In the years before Amanda was born, I lost two pregnancies and was almost convinced that I could never have a baby of my own.

Then, in July 1989, Amanda Rose entered our lives and, finally, I was the mother I always dreamed it would be. Two years later, I had little Katherine Michelle, and nine years later, little Jessica Grace surprised us after being sure she would never get pregnant again. The days I had with my girls were the best days of my life. Those three little bundles of joy were the greatest blessings of my life, and like her mother, I swore that I would do everything possible to protect them and keep them safe from evil.

Raising three girls is a difficult gift, full of ups and downs and everything in between. I never knew that I could love so much, so deeply, so fully, until they entered my life. My girls are everything, and my world revolves around them. So, naturally, when Amanda called me in 2014, when she was 24, to tell me that a doctor had touched her inappropriately, my world was shattered.

I was scared by the phone. It was obvious that she did not want to talk about it, but I was so scared she had to tell me. She gave me the game per game, her voice became softer with every disgusting detail.

I wanted to throw up. I did not understand. This could not be correct.

My girl? Larry Nassar had touched my sweet Amanda?

I remembered when I first met him. I was a third-year medical student, and he was a promising assistant professor in sports medicine at Michigan State University. Somehow, I managed to land its rotation. I could not believe how lucky I was to have the opportunity to learn from a rising star in the field.

From the beginning, I knew it was peculiar and strange. Maybe it was touchy and perhaps pushed the boundaries of professional "personal space". But was not it always in a medical way?

He had so much energy. He was so excited to teach us how to heal people, just as he did.

Even in 1994, he was the attending physician for any pediatric athletic injury, especially if the athlete was a young gymnast. I had over and over again with him, professionally, referring to my own injured patients for evaluation and treatment. I had sent my three daughters, a cheerleader, a soccer player and a gymnast, to him for various sports injuries. And now my Amanda was telling me that she had touched her inappropriately.

Suzanne Thomashow, a pediatrician, at her home in Lansing.

As a doctor, I did not find it incomprehensible that a colleague ignored the Hippocratic oath and deliberately harmed his own patient. He had listened to the same lectures as me, so I was sure he was aware of the psychological effects of the sexual assault. He knew the physical and emotional scars of all life left by such trauma.

How do you wrap your head in something like that? What do you do?

I can tell you that now, with everything I've learned, the first and most important thing you do is listen to every word your baby tells you. You thank them for trusting you with their story. And then he asks them what they want to do . Because that is what matters.

While struggling with the information and, finally, with the result of the investigation caused by the Amanda report, I did everything possible to support it. But like many parents facing a sexually traumatized child, I did not have all the tools. My firstborn, strong and independent, suffered and separated, and she needed a deeper level of support and empowerment than I knew how to give. I did not realize how much I was suffering, and how lonely she felt.

Amanda decided to inform MSU, and I thought that this was a good decision. He knew they would initiate an investigation and, more importantly, he knew that Nassar would be de-registered and would not have access to patients. Amanda courageously informed the director of sports medicine and a Title IX report was initiated. When told that he did not know the "nuanced difference between sexual assault and a medical procedure," we became enraged.

Amanda was victimized twice, first by Nassar, then by a deeply flawed investigation conducted by Nassar's friends and colleagues at MSU. I felt so sad for Amanda, angry at the injustice of all this, and angry at Nassar and MSU for what they did to her.

She wanted to go ahead, and I respected that, so we did not talk about it again, until Amanda called me in August 2016 to tell me that another person had denounced Larry.

"I knew, mom, I tried to tell them, and now I'm not alone, there are going to be hundreds, mom, maybe thousands. Just wait, mom, I knew I was not crazy. " Someone from the MSU police had called her to inform her that there was another complaint against Larry. This time, the victim was going public.

Shortly after, Rachael Denhollander became the first victim to publicly denounce sexual abuse in an article of Indianapolis Star that changed the game. My world broke again. I was driving with Jess when she told me that the monster had also touched her. I did not just have one of my babies. He got two of them.

Amanda Thomashow, 29, poses for a portrait in the bed where she originally wrote her stunning statement about Larry Nassar a year ago.

I spent every waking moment doing everything I could to protect my girls from something like this. He had warned them about buses and shopping centers. I kept them close to the holidays and contacted them with the parents when they stayed with friends. I participated, I was present, I hired trusted nannies and I was always in contact with teachers and coaches. How had this happened? And he was a doctor! A doctor he had admired. A doctor I told them to trust.

This time, I did better. I let Jessica take everything out, and then I asked her what she wanted to do. We went to the police station because she wanted to report it, and I let her lead the way. I used the basic principles of a victim-centered approach. I let her talk, I empowered her and I knew how much my baby was suffering.

When driving to the station, I thought of all the red flags I had missed. Your foolish and practical approach. The nicknames I had for the girls. The Olympic pin that he gave to my Jess. All the grooming techniques he used to reassure us, before exploiting our confidence and using the bodies of our girls for their own disgusting pleasure.

Later that night, just after a long day of reliving painful memories and cursing the day I met Larry Nassar, it really blew me away. Only a few women had reported abuses at the time, but I could not get the words out of Amanda's head: "There will be hundreds, mom, maybe thousands." I was so sure, and once again, I was so right. .

I wanted so much to believe in MSU when we were told that this had never happened before and would never happen again. I had relied on my alma mater to do the right thing. And all they did was to enable the predator that wounded not one, but two of my girls.

 Jessica Thomashow, 18, holds the original statement about the impact of the victim in Ingham County on Nassar that she read a year ago.

Jessica Thomashow, 18, holds the original statement about the impact on the Ingham County victim of Nassar that she read a year ago.

Now, years after those first conversations that broke the world, and a year after Larry Nassar was actually sentenced to life imprisonment, we know that my girls are just two of many. We know he focused on young athletes and probably chose a profession that would give him easy access to his ideal victims. We know that he disguised himself as a disinterested defender of the same athletes he abused. He was the "good boy", who took Skittles to hungry gymnasts and got back on his body when their sport separated them.

He was foolish and quickly won the trust of the parents, with its walls full of awards and his endless list of achievements. He made his patients feel comfortable, and then special, bathing them with gifts, sharing jokes and saying goodbye to them after each appointment. He progressed from the non-sexual to the sexual, and we now know that Larry Nassar, through preparation and manipulation, sexually assaulted hundreds (probably thousands) of girls.

We also know the institutions that enabled it and prioritized their reputations and dollars on the lives of our little girls. We know that he could have been arrested in 1997, before my little Jessica was born, if she had heard the first known victim she had told an official about Nassar. We know that there were many opportunities to stop it in the following years, if only the adults in authority with the information had done the right thing.

Today my three girls are in recovery mode. Katherine Michelle, who saw Nassar with a knee injured in soccer but was not mistreated, has been a column of strength, love and support for his brothers. Amanda Rose got up and left a very sad place, and got a career working for all the victims of aggression as sexual assault coordinator on the campus of the Michigan Board of Prevention and Treatment of Domestic and Sexual Violence. As it recovers, it is making important advances in an area of ​​great need in our society. Jessica Grace is a freshman in college, trying to be normal. She feels good about her role in putting Nassar behind bars, where he can not hurt another girl again. She helped conduct the two criminal assault trials with her "victim A" testimony, an easy task for a girl who was then a high school student in high school. She still fears "men in authority" and has "the nightmare" when she is forced to remember, but every day is a little better than the previous one.

So, where do we go from here?

Well, there is only one address. We keep going.

 Suzanne Thomashow, center, takes the hands of her daughters Amanda, right, and Jessica, left

Suzanne Thomashow, in the center, holds the hands of her daughters, Amanda, right, and Jessica, left.

We take the lessons we have learned from the army of survivors who brought down Larry Nassar, and we do everything we can to make sure this does not happen again.

We protect our little ones from monsters like Larry, and we do everything we can to remain vigilant. We do not allow ourselves to be blinded by a person's reputation, no matter how outstanding it may be. Now we know that this is how evil is hidden from view.

We do everything possible to keep our little ones safe from predators, but we also understand that we can not always be there. So we educate our children about things like consent and inappropriate contact, even if talking about that scares us.

We tell our little ones that they can refuse a hug or a handshake, and we teach them that they own their bodies. We give them permission to advocate for themselves, and we encourage them to do so. We show them how to respect a "no" and explain the importance of listening to the words of others.

We teach our children to trust their guts, and we train them to feel comfortable speaking for themselves. We teach them that their feelings, their thoughts and their voices are important, and we provide a safe space for them to come to us if they ever need to talk.

Because we know that no matter how prepared we are, how vigilant, careful and cautious, terrible things sometimes happen

And if something horrible happens, we listen. When someone tells us that they have been raped, we do not question them or their motives. We give them our support and ask them what they need.

We believe in survivors, and we respect them. We thank them for moving forward, if they do, and we understand that the mere fact of getting out of bed after being sexually assaulted is so brave that each prize is worth it.

We can not forget the group of women who overthrew Larry Nassar. We can not forget everything that we have been taught.

We have to learn from what happened to our girls, and we have to learn the lesson now, because that is the only way to make sure that something like This does not happen again.

"One year later: Larry Nassar and the women who made us listen" is a seven-part series commemorating the seven days that they were Women in the court of Judge Rosemarie Aquilina, Lansing, Michigan, last room January and read the powerful statements about the impact of the victim to former USA Gymnastics and Michigan State coach Larry Nassar. His words made history, forcing the country to finally listen and face the abuse that Nassar committed. This series highlights the people who helped topple Nassar, as well as the people he hurt for so long.

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